hmm.

turning 16 on monday.

what do i want?

i want to be with my friends, family and i want world peace.

and i wanna go to england.

corny right?
but thats what i really want.

wondering when shins ever gonna come again.
damn.

its a nice saturday.

no sch.
sunny outside.
cool with the air-con on.
music on.
on the net.
what a nice slacking saturday.

i want every day to be like this.

hai but theres gonna be lotsa tests next week.

hah.
yeah. monday the choir ppl are leaving sch after only the 2nd lesson.

so theres only chem and phy.
sian lah. but nice.(:

emotional by diana degarmo on now.
nice.

ive been wondering.
where do we go after death occurs?

ghosts or angels?
i only believe in ghosts.

like, i read in the papers about this guy who practices dark magic and curses.
and he breeds ghosts.
know where he gets the ghosts?
when a pregant lady doesnt want her baby, she pays him and he gets the foetus.
he cuts her womb open, gets the baby out.
and bbq the baby.
burn it lah.
then before the child gets to see the world.
its already dead.

he says the younger the ghost, the more guai it will be.
cos the ghost have not yet seen the world, and doesnt know anything about defending himself.
therefore he will make sure the ghost obeys his orders.

creepy right?

he has a lotta those ghost children.
but after 3-4 years, he lets them go.
cos in the nether world, ghosts that are a few years old are considered old already.
then they are pretty useless to help the guy do things and stuff.

and theres this womans photo outside his door.
he says she helps him see the people outside and asks what they want.
like when he has costumers coming.
she will tell the guy about it and he would already know that the customer wants before the person steps into his house.
basically shes his right hand woman.
sees to things.
but shes a ghost.
no one has ever seen her in person.
to everyone shes a ghost.
the photo was passed from the guys teacher and now to himself.
the ghost does what her master orders.
eveything.
be it good or bad.
like the ghost children he breeds.

wow.
didnt know theres such a person around.

*shudder

at viviens house now.

supposed to be studying for tomorrows chem test but what the heck.

dunno what im gonna buy for him for v.day.

must buy this year cos ive bought stuff for him for the past 3 years and itd be weird if i dont buy this year right? and it will be the last year im buying stuff for him hai.

gonna buy something special.
instead of chocolates.
go in one end and come out the other end.
no use right?
must buy something that he will appreciate .

cant bear to think of graduating.

its been 3 years now.

thats long huh.

*sigh*

things arent so bad now.

yipee english test results wasnt bad.

im gonna have to rely alot on my eng chi and hist results.

just hope that i do well enough and just get this over with.

last nights first episode of american idol 4 was nice.

people who cant sing still look stupid as ever.

don mean to be offensive.

guess what?

new judge.

[drum roll]
mark macgrath!

hes the coolest guy on earth.
so young and successful.
rich and good-looking.

what else can a guy want, man.

nothing else, man.

bought a new adidas bottle.
same as before but this time round i bought the see-through one.
cool.

and my mom makes the best laksa.
better than the ones you eat outside.

just crapping around talking shit all day.
shitty as ever.

hari raya haji today.
no sch.
bored like shit.
but its better than being in sch.

they are all outside watching chi new year vcds.
ohh crap.
people dressed stupidly prancing around like foooooooools.

my com got problem leh.
crapp.

hmm thinking abt buying mom a pair of nice shoes on mothers day.
but thats months away.
lols.
shes been treating me good.
so she deserves to get sth.
dad too.
i will get him a wallet or shirt or tie or sth.

hah.

one more thing,

rock never dies!:)

okay.

in the sch com lab once again.
doing shitty stuff.
hist ppt, what else.

skipped hse prac hiack hiack.

yepp.
yesterdays band prac was a blast.
altho we didnt know what to do and crapped ard.
i dno how to play leh aiyo.
all the instruments were so cool.
[yepp im just a beginner]
the place was cool too.
we each paid 7 bucks.
if this goes on i will be pok!

but i hope things will work out well.
cos everybodys not free and stuff.
so we might not have time to meet up to prac.

die.

gonna fail my a math test.
i hate bionomial theorem!
ugh.

hmm really busy these few days.
i just wanna go home and snooze right now.
but homes so boring.
hai.

guess what.
im finishing my song.

i will write a story next.

and it shall be a best seller.
and i shall earn loads of money.
hiack hiack.

dream on, abbie.

disaster has struck again.

i have been meaning to write this.
but never got to it.
well cos my life has been really hectic,
i don wanna add more chaos to it.

yeahh its the tsunami thing. sad huh?

8 areas affected.
more than 127,000 ppl lost their lives.

thats a darn lot of innocent ppl.

most of them were children.
and you see the rows and rows of dead babies on the news.

that freaked me out.

anyone would be.

god gave them life. and hes back to take them away.

prolly theres a better place somewhere else.

and theyve all gone there.

one minute of silence pls.

okay.

i watched channel news asia for three whole hours [first time] this afternoon.

the part about where the tidal waves hit penang was really sad.

tears were brimming in my eyes.

i sucked them back.

anyways.

theres this muslim family living around the beach.

the wave came.

this malay guy lost 5 of this 7 children.
he was real sad. crying and stuff.

he was saying how he tried to grab them but they lost their grip.
that he would give his own life for the safety of his children.
sob.

7 children. can you imagine how lively his home used to be?
now its only his eldest daughter, youngest daughter, his wife and himself.

he lost his only son. he loved him very much.
he was his only son, only hope, he said.

he picked up the photo of his son and showed it to the camera, crying.

i cant imagine that happening to my family.

when the news of the tidal wave hitting malaysia made the news,
i prayed hard nothing happened to my family.

without them, i wont have any more purpose in life.

my family means a lot to me.
more than anything else in the world.
i love them dearly.

lucky it only affected the northern part of malaysia, penang.

my family's around the southern and central part.

and malayia's so close to singapore. what if..?

and those ppl who survived the tsunami but lost their loved ones.
they wanted to die too.

imagine. more than 127,000 lost their lives.
the many many more that survived need help.

that set the united nations organisation working.

and those who survived.
theyre affected psychologically.

it will take a long time for them to recover from the horrors of the tsunami.

or maybe never.

not to mention the destruction the waves and earthquakes caused.

so many ppl homeless, helpless.

i dunno what to say.

pls ppl. pls pray hard that the ppl who are still missing are safe and sound.

im listening to jet's move on from their get born cd.

to those ppl who survived the tsunami.
pls move on.
we will always be behind you.

amen.

im in the schools com lab right now.

faking that im doing research on a project when actually im blogging and searching for pictures of gerrad butler that phantom guy and other stuff.

2nd week of school.

and im bored outta my mind.

like the song in my blog?

i like it =)

yellowcard rocks mann.

hiack hiack hiack.

my bands gonna start soon.

cant wait. =))

i wanna be the drummer. bang away like crazy.

and loving it. [pah dah pah pah pah]

and i actually wrote a song hiack hiack hiack.

but i cant complete it.

its about sch.
and how much im hating it.

gotta go for choir rehearsal now.

ciao.

okay.

im really not ready fer sch yet!

im prepared for the worst. or the good things. whatever.

okay. thats it. im prepared.

okay. i will take anything that comes my way. but work really hard to get the thing that i really want. but bravely face the bad stuff nonetheless. [???]

[takes a breather] right. there you go. my new year resolution.

i don need too much.

make too much resolutions and disappoint yourself when you cant achieve them.

what for?

the sch keeps making changes. like, unnecessary changes.

excuse me for saying its unnecessary but if its necessary someone pls explain to me how is it necessay.

right. now we have a ten day timetable. instead of the usual five day one. odd and even week's timetable will be different. [????]

what the hell for?

we are gonna have english lang, geog and hist tomorrow. that means its the humans day of the week. yipee. its not gonna be so bad after all. if its gonna be chinese and math and chem or physics im gonna skip the first day of sch.

im listening to cong jing yi hou by shin over and over again. and im gonna listen to tiao xin by shin over and over again later on.

cos im lovin it. [pah dah pah pah pah] :P

rawk on babeee!

shin fans, pls find some way to contact me cos i wanna set up a fan club. wrong. hardcore fan club. and make our pressence known. hiack hiack hiack.

heard on radio that kelly clarkson likes the phrase, cool beans.

beans make you fart. hiack hiack.

btw what was the number one song of 2004 on the perfect 10? i need to know. i know 2003 was black eyed peas where is the love?

after the Os, im gonna have a one month vacation in malaysia. really. my heart belongs to malaysia. no kidding. i feel like im supposed to be born there but last minute god misplanned something and i ended up here.

where the education system really sucks.

okay im being harsh. it will be better for my future i know.

but im just using this place and the education system here. once im free from the evil clutches of education, im gonna be free.

i will work hard to get my first million. buy my parents a big house with ten servants.

for me? a limo. but first i gotta make the government allow me to be driven in a limo. and get personalised carparks with my name written big big on it and just enough space for my limo to be parked.

buy a big piece of land and build a bungalow. maybe a castle [that will be in england where they have the space].

i will first serve the government. then be served later on.

dream on, abbie.

so much so for my creative imagination.

wild imagination, really.

darn. should have gotten this K700i later. maybe can get the S700i. 8x digital zoom know. wtf you need so much zoom for? see people's nose hair?

one night in beijing. hmm maybe i will really go over there and spend one night there. see how it really feels. like they sing in that song? we shall see.

what? they sing about not daring to ask directions in the middle of the night cos might meet a sad ghost.

huh?

weird lah. but the song rawwks. cos shin sang it mahh.

and im lovin it. [pah dah pah pah pah]

right. im ranting about stuff that don matter.

cos i want time to pass quickly.

ohhs. one good thing about sch is that time passes really fast.

first week. swoop! second week. swoop! third week. swoop!

and so on and so forth.

yada yada yada.

and here comes the big exam.

everybody got on your feet and scream NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

ciao.

naptime!

snore.

Sian ahh.
school opens tomorrow. Shit.<--------an extra big one.
I have something really important to announce. My apostrophe[er the comma thing you put in words like hes. Short for he is. Something like that] is missing. If I put it in it will become dunno what shit character. And the dash thing. Like my chasing the sun webbie. Okay? Get it? Okay. Now I have nothing to worry about. I will try my best to not use those stuff.

Hmm. Why am I still chasing the sun? the sun is really important right? So maybe I havent found my sun yet. You know what I mean. My friend said once, dont chase the sun too much, youll get burnt. chaoda. black shit.

sian ahh.

im without my shin cd. hai.

i have decided to get the drama series. i think the whole set is about $30. for 20 discs. i wanna check out their acting skills teehees. and add that to my shin collection.

think if there was a hurricane or earthquake or natural disaster whatever [touch wood ahh] i would grab my shin collection first.

went to see them that time they came to singapore. hmm that was when they were here to promote their 3rd album hai kuo tian kong. peiying called me up. think the thing started at around 6 or 7 like that. then norine they all had to leave. that leaves me. peiying didnt want to see them. she kept apologizing [nevermind lahh!]. hmm well i stood there alone staring at shin like an idiot. we immediately knew once they arrived cos ahh xin and michael are so tall. 1.9m know! a head above everyone else. i saw michaels black face hahaha. theyre really nice. too bad chris was sick he couldnt come. think a lotta girls were disappointed cos hes the cutest in the band. im moved by ahh xin's singing. whether its live or not. i thought initially that ahh xins the kind of preserved and quiet guy. well i tell you hes not. i managed to watch the first part of the drama series cos the hai kuo tian kong cd comes with a free VCD that includes the first part of the series and a small part of a concert. he was like ta ma de this ta ma de that. some people may think thats yuck right? but you cant expect a rocker guy to be really quiet and preserved what. being wild and crazy [and vulgar?] is what makes a true rocker hahaha. that's my rock theory. aiyah i dunno lahh im just crapping. anyways they performed 6 songs from the new cd. its already very good cos usually at those concert-cum-autograph-signing sessions they don spend a lotta time on the singing. but they gave us 6 tracks. hai too bad i couldnt get the cd in time. but seeing them face to face was good enough for me heh.

this time that their new album is out. im not gonna miss that chance again. if theyd let me, id prolly bring all the rest of the albums and make them sign them all at once. yeahh! hey if you have news on their visiting singapore to promote again, don hesitate to let me know kaes.

if they stop making music anytime soon [which i doubt. they've been making music ever since i was born], i will have no more purpose in life.

i don really listen to a lotta chinese music lahh. i used to. so i know more about the older singers like jackie cheung all that lols. i like zhang zheng yue. that rocker guy with the goatee. hes got a nice voice[cheers]. if i were i guy i would grow a goatee. looks neat and cool. like mr ju also lols. craig david also have. and hes one cool son of a gun.

i realise i have a lotta things to write. blogging is a good thing know. improves your english. if your mom goes, why are you always online?!? cant you be guai and study? be more like the ahh di next door lahh blah blah.. shout back at her, im improving my english! then she comes in and sees you typing away feverishly at the pc, she will have nothing to say. i have tried it before. guaranteed success or get your money back. [what money?]

la dee dums.

i love rock and roll!

rock and roll? what has roll got to do with rock?

support local talent pls.

electrico rocks my socks.

and shin too. :P

Happy new year everybody. =))

1st Jan is new years day. 30 days more is someones big day[no its not my wedding]. You can see it in my profile thing. =))

I didnt really get to celebrate cos for no reason that I could think of, I suddenly got worried about not completing my homework then digged out my history stuff. I flipped through. And got bored. Then chucked the whole pile away. I managed to do some social studies though. I wasted an hour and a half on that.

Nothing to do. So went upstairs to aarons[not that aaron] house to look for something to do. Celebrating new year lohh, what else. They had Carlsberg. I had what, coke. That stupid nose of mine worked up again due to my refusing to turn off the air-con but the weathers really bad. So I sat there sniffling with my coke til 10.30. then finally I couldnt stand it. I went back downstairs to get my medicine. Ate it. Dozed off.

Thats how I celebrated the new year. Fun, huh? Didnt even watched the countdown.

Messaged a lotta people. Asked whether got do homework. Everybodys nonono. Especially history. Cmon loh. Choys more worried then mr ju lehh.

I shall repeat what he said on that piece of paper where got all the history assignments. The last point. Point #4: the examination timetable I mentioned – it is NO JOKE!!!

And he signed off Alexander Choy
History Co-Ordinator
29 October 2004

See. Im getting worried for him. For getting too worried. Alexander the Choy. Hahaha.

Btw is Alexander that movie NC-16 or what or not? Cos I bought the VCD in Malaysia. Got porn lehh! Yuckies. But Alexander the Great supposed to be homo also. That Colin Farrell acting as Alexander hugged a guy and said, I miss you too. Hahah. Then got another scene is he touch the guy’s face and talk to him with their faces really close together. I wonder if Colin Farrell had goosebumps when acting or watching himself to that. Cos in real life I think hes supposed to be real flirty and a womans guy. No men for him. Funny!

Right. So I be a bit guai guai. I did the history workbook halfway. The St. Margarets and St. Anthonys paper I did a bit. I read through Odyssey and Modern World. This shows that I still love history deeply. Despite what the teachers do, despite how our all time fave teacher is.

Suddenly I feel like changing blogskin again hahaha.

I like track 9 on jets cd. Cold hard bitch haha. Cold hard bitch! Youre just a kiss on the lips blah blah. Nice.

The skys so dark. God must be crying for the people caught in the tsunami thing. Real sad.

These few years a lotta bad things happened right. 911, SARS, the Saddam Hussein and Bush thing, Bird flu blah blah and now this.

Zhang dong liangs singing is actually not bad. but not as good as shin lahh hahaha. I love saying that. Not as good as shin lahh.

A 9 year old girl just called up perfect 10 to dedicate a song. Siaow.