there is one particular girl i cant stand.

she is a bitch.

lucky theres only one year left.
i wont be able to stand it.
i just might explode. or maybe i will kill her first before i explode.

since this is open to the public. i shall be merciful and spare her from embarassment by not revealing her disgusting name.

ever since sec1, shes been getting on my nerves. being rude to me, making use of me and my belongings and many many more.

i remember once when i got my first handphone. she wanted to make a call. she didnt borrow a phone from anybody else. she grabbed my phone, which was in my hand, and said give it to me. then she happily dialled. i wanted to punch her, slap her, or worse, scoop her eyes out with a spoon and feed them to the pigeons. cut her tongue off and feed it to the pigs. cut her big head off and empty everything inside and leave it on top of the tv in her home. and call her mom up and apologise for killing her daughter. sorry auntie. im doing the world a great favour. im gonna make her look really ugly when i kill her.

cos shes really vain. she spends a lotta money on cosmetics and clothes. basically on her appearance. i wont be surprised if one day the whole of her body becomes fake one day.

i helped her many times. but when things go wrong she blamed it on me. like her relationship. it was not my fault that things turned out the way things turned out.

if you think i think of you as a friend, think again. the world isnt always nice. and i am not always nice.

you are #1 on my hatelist. but really, you are the only one on my hatelist.

fuck off and go to hell shitface.

Got my hair cut yesterday after the trip to amk library to do homework. My hairs got so long its irritating. Now my head feels light. Its like my old hairstyle lah except that the fringe doesnt get in my eyes. Hmm yeah so Ive completed a math, e math, abit of ss, a bit of history, and most of geog. That leaves English and Chinese but Im not gonna care about those. Think theres chemistry also leh. Aiyah nevermind. Nevermind. Hmm I like the word nevermind. Think it was an old Nirvana CD title. Nevermind. Not never mind. But nevermind. Okay nevermind. Im starting to like my phone hahaha. Too bad cannot insert memory card leh. Only 41 MG. but right now the phone still has 20k+ kb. How do you convert mg to kb? Okay nevermind.

The secret behind Leonardo Da Vincis famous painting the Mona Lisa is very mystifying and fascinating. As Da Vinci was known to be a homosexual in his days, some believe that the woman in the painting is actually the man himself, dressed as a woman. Da Vinci was a prankster, and computerized analysis of the Mona Lisa and Da Vincis self-portraits confirm some startling points of congruency in their faces. Whatever Da Vinci was up to, his Mona Lisa is neither male nor female. It carries a subtle message of androgyny. It is a fusing of both. The background of the painting behind the woman’s face is uneven. Da Vinci painted the horizon line on the left significantly lower than the right. Actually, this is a little trick Da Vinci played. By lowering the countryside on the left, Da Vinci made Mona Lisa look much larger from the left side than from the right side. Historically, the concepts of male and female have assigned sides – left is female, and right is male. Because Da Vinci was a big fan of feminine principles, he made Mona Lisa look more majestic from the left than the right. Da Vinci was in tune with the balance between male and female. He believed that a human soul could not be enlightened unless it had both male and female elements.

I got that whole chuck from the book da vinci code. Something like that. Forgot written by who. Nice book.

Holiday

Hear the sound of the falling rain
Coming down like an Armageddon flame (hey!)
The shame
The ones who dies without a name

Hear the dogs howl out of key
To a hymn called faith and Misery (hey!)
And bleed
The company lost the war today

Chorus
I beg to dream and differ from the hollow lies
This is the dawning of the rest of our lives
On holiday

Hear the drum pound out of time
Another protestor has crossed the line (hey!)
To find
The moneys on the other side

Can I get another Amen? (Amen!)
There’s a flag wrapped around the score of men (hey!)
A gag
A plastic bag on a monument

Chorus

The representative from California has the floor

Sieg Heil to the president of gasmen
Bombs away is your punishment
Pulverize the Eiffel towers
Who criticize your government
Bang bang goes the broken glass and
Kill all the fags that don’t agree
Trials by fire, setting fire
Is not a way that’s meant for me
Just cos, just cos,
Because we’re outlaws yeah!

I beg to dream and differ from the hollow lies
This is the dawning of the rest of our lives
I beg to dream and differ from the hollow lies
This is the dawning of the rest of our lives
This is our lives on holiday

Nice song. Think this is the most catchy one from green days American idiot cd. A lotta political stuff but if you ignore all the political stuff, all you non-political people out there will enjoy the album just as well. Nice. Theyve been singing for ten years already. I remember some of their hits a few years back.

My this entry very long right?

Its full of gibberish.

Alright. I shall stop.

Nevermind.

In a months time Ill be 16.

I think nothings really great turning 16. maybe 18s better? Or 21s best? What the hell. 16s the year of the Os. yuckies. Im starting to get worried but Im not doing anything about it.

All I really wanna do now is get on with life and school and hurry grow up. I wanna grow up and make loads of money maybe set up a restaurant or be a music journalist I dunno. I just know I that I wanna make money and go to England and get on with it. With life. I really wanna visit England, maybe I will beg my aunt to take me there and beg my mom for the money and go there for my cousins university graduation. Yeah. Nono. Not for the graduation. For England. Go to England for England. Or maybe I wanna go to germany. France? Definitely Greece. Or maybe switzerland ice skiing. And die rolling down the snowy slope and hit my head on the old rotting insect infested log. No thank you very much. North pole. Hah no such person as santa claus. Someone get his number and call him up and ask him if hes for real. Whoever made up santa claus must be an idiot. Make children think that santas for real and be disappointed. Hes just a fairytale or something. I hate fairytales. I will never read fairytales as bedtime stories for my children in the future. Never. I will tell them about the hard journey shin took to get their deserved fame today lols. Ten years down the road they will be like the fei yu qing and bee gees and phil Collins all that. Our children will say yuck. Old songs. Mom, cant you listen to some happening bands like shitface101? They are so in right now. those singers and bands you listen to are so old they have white ear hair. And what are those costumes?!? The in thing is to be naked and parade around town! And blah blah.

Shit. The fear of next year is getting to me. Im loopy.

Excuse me while i wash my brain with soap.

yay finally got a blogskin that i really like. hmm was back from hwei zhong's chalet this afternoon. we took the 88 bus back. i managed to last all the way from pasir ris bus interchange to toa payoh interchange lols. quite fun lahh. only it got really cold when it was time for bed and we slept at like, 4 plus. i couldn't sleep so i laid there listening to music. i slept from 5 to 6. that's a first for me haha. ohh yah the part when hz pretended to be someone's dad so that he could talk to huiyun's dad to persuade him to let her stay for the night was funny. "yes, mr lim here.. blah blah.." hahaha. i've got the whole thing videod in my phone. speaking of phone. i had a good time koping tones and MP3s and pictures from hz and sebastian's phone. through infrared lahh. now my phone's not that empty heh. but home's still the best ehh? now you know why there's a phrase called 'home sweet home'. sch's gonna open next week. i've not yet completed my hw. i'm afraid of what's gonna be coming next year. i'm so screwed.

the shin cd is fantasic. it's not everyday that you get to listen to music and be deeply touched. for me lahh. their new songs are quite nice. they're really emotional stuff but none of those corny 'wo ai ni's and 'i love you's. their songs are more of the type of friendships and trying to hold on to that relationship but just feel like letting go at the same time. like being there for the person and you want everything in the world to be perfext for him or her. like when you've accomplished something great and you want that person to enjoy and celebrate with you. something like that. i dunno how they manage to get those songs. some are written by them but the better ones are written by other composers. the person's able to fully express how they feel when writing the song and make the audience relate to their emotions. plus with a great band like shin, it makes the songs even more fantastic. ah xin's able to really just give all that can to make the song... real. so that the audience is able to understand the song better and enjoy. it's ablso not only ah xin's singing and voice that touches me. it's also their band. the music they make is nothing that i've heard before before i've heard shin's music. hmm that will be 4 years back. their music is really full of emotions and passion for what they're doing now. it's been at least ten years since they've come together to make music. and they're not young huh lols. yeah.

just had dinner. it's my sis's 11th birthday today. she always get to celebrate her birthday here. he drove us to get the cake. i'm shagged. ran around like crazy with my cousins playing ball. he sprained his wrist the other day. it's all bruised and yuck. he was playing soccer as the keeper so when the ball came, he shot his hand out and the ball connected with his wrist.

there's nothing much these's few days. uncle got me and cousin to help him type out his phonebook with consists of about manybe 200 entries. man he has a lotta contacts.

my aunt, mom, and grandma are downstairs chatting. cousin's gonna leave for KL tomorrow. there's a big sale there in KL. things are real cheap, i hear. they asked me along. i said no thanks haha.

gonna be going home on monday. hai why does time fly so fast? i still remember the first day i got here, that night we went to a super ulu fishing village to have dinner. then dno what happened everybody wanted to cross a bridge. it's supposed to be famous i think. i'm scared of bridges. overhead bridges and stuff. i walked three steps and backed off. it was during the night, see. so other than the bridge, you wouldn't be able to see anything else. it's all dark water and stuff. real creepy. so i couldn't cross it, so i stayed behind alone while everybody went on. that dinner was nice. seafood and stuff.

sch's gonna be opened again soon. i haven't touched my books. haven't complete my homework. i'm screwed.

why is he always so bad tempered. always makes a fuss out of little things. his wrist is still hurting. yet he can still drive.

dad called just now. he misses us. he's not here with us cos he's gotta work. he hasn't been here in along time.

hmm ahh haha having a nice time here in malaysia. had a black out at my aunt's house just last night. and i was thinking after the two weeks that we've been here, why hasn't there been a blackout yet. i was feeding the fish when the lights in the tank died. i was like, huh?, then the lights on the first storey went off. it didn't take long for the lights upstairs to go out as well. then we pitched into total darkness. for no reason that i could think of my sis, cousin and i burst into song as we danced and around and sang 'we wish you a merry christmas' at the top of our voices, as a result, bumping into furniture along the way (ouch). maybe it's the joy of christmas. lols. yes that's about it. i'm gonna log off now buhbye.

hmm well i got the sad news last night while watching the star awards thingy. sad huh? i just got a shock, not really a huge blow, cos i'm not that close to her. but it's just sad. it's her honeymoon loh. and she just got married. those days were supposed to be her happiest days in her life.. how can this happen to anyone? and they're still so young.. hai. one day they're here, the next they're not. it was on the news earlier on. mr chew looked so sad.

haha i'm back. deleted my last blog cos i dno what was wrong with it. anyway. is this blogskin okay? i had no time to choose so i heck care lah lols. i'm gonna keep everything simple. i'm currently at malaysia right now. the land of illegal vcds, chewing gum and kids with big motor bikes lols. i'm gonna be here for another two weeks. done some shopping. watched white chicks, the incredibles, alexander, the polar express, bridget jones' diary. watched bj's diary just this morning. damn funny ahh hahaha. but sweet at the samw time. quite nice all in all. daniel cleaver is still an asshole. bridget jones: "i think you should just go f**k yourself [to daniel cleaver]". yay good one.