A Problem

People have asked, with me and the BF's age gap of 12 years, have we had any problems with our age difference? I've always said no.

But we found a problem last night. I got home at around 12am, having gone to Night Safari with Par and Orlina to have dinner at Bongo Burgers, and after that Annabel came and Hun Loon took us for a buggy ride. And then we missed the bus so I got home pretty late.

He wasn't happy with that.

I've always noticed that he's upset whenever I get home late. But most of the time I manage to catch the last train or bus. So it's not late, late. I always thought it wasn't a big deal, and just shrug it off.

He wasn't angry, he just sounded upset on the phone. And with my character like this, although I knew what he was upset about, I still went ahead and asked him what's wrong.

I guess... At his age, he's the kind who goes home after work if nobody asks him out. And at my age, I'm the kind who likes to go out and have fun. But I have my limits, I don't go clubbing or pubbing or stay out late at night and not go home. I just like to spend some time with my friends once in a while.

He's told me his fear of me growing up and meeting new friends at new workplaces, those who are in their 20s and 30s who go drinking after work and partying until late night. Therefore, turning into what his ex became.

Sometimes I feel like he thinks that I'm still a little girl, that he always have to be there for me, to ward off baddies and stuff. I've asked him and he's said that he's a little apprehensive of what I'll grow to be in a few years' time. He's not confident to let me face the world. Something like that.

Some time last year, my sis and ma went over to Malaysia on their own and I agreed to meet them there in a few days. Told them I'll be going over on my own. The BF wouldn't let me go alone. It was either I don't go at all, or he goes with me. Although he really really didn't want to go, I insisted on going there, so ended up he went with me to Malaysia.

Baby, I'm old enough to take care of myself, although sometimes I may need you to guide me. I know what kind of person I will become but I won't turn into the kind of person you fear I would be. Baby, I will be good for you. Don't worry.